parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This Needs to End Now Wish I Could Listen To: Siants and Sailors by Dashboard Confessional Hey. I am in school again. Since I made my own template for this diary, I think I am going to make some other ones and make a website for templates. My next one will be about inavder zim and then some other exploding dog templates. Anyway, back to my life. I think I am going to come down here in the library every E period to write in my diary because I think it is a perfect time to write in here. School can not suck anymore than right now. Swampscott High School SUCKS SOOOOO MUCH. I hate Swampscott High School!!! I haven't been doing some of my homework and I am starting to slip though, which is a VERY bad thing. I need to get back on track or else I will be grounded for yet another reason and for a longer period of time. But, what I wanted to talk about was somthing that I have been thinking about. It has to do with my dad and my brother and how we fight all the time. I have figured out the he will always have the power in fighting situations becuase of crucial moments and ignorant desicions, listen to this: If I get into a fight with my brother I will either: A) Get so mad that I start beating the shit out of him, he eventually will scream for my dad or hannah, creating an extreme annoyance to everyone in the house and everyone will be like "SHUT THE FUCK UP ASSHOLES". If my dad comes up, he will just break us up, repremand us, and/or ground us for a certain amount of time. ~or~ B)I go down to my father, tell him what the fuck Stephan just called me and/or what he just did. My father will then be like "Then why don't you beat him up?" (refer to option A) or "I don't want to fucking deal with you two anymore, fin for yourselves, I am not going to do this!" Therefore nothing will happen and Stephan will still do the shit he does. Yesterday, my brother left a bowl of tomato soup in the front of my computer for two days. I took it out and placed it in his room. He then said "I am going to put it back in the computer room." That fucking anoyed me SO MOTHER FUCKING MUCH!!! I then said no fucking way and stood in front of the computer room door. he stood in the hallway. We stood there for about ten minutes when he bounced a bouncy ball right into the bowl of tomato soup he was hold, spilling it on the biege carpet. I WAS ABOUT TO STRANGLE HIM WITH A COMPUTER CORD! He slowly goes down starts and tells me to clean it up. I then finally kicked the LIVING SHIT OUT OF HIM. Luckily no one was home so I had the power in this fight becuase he cleaned it up and I was happy. But right now I just feel really sad. I can't stand this school anymore. It makes me depressed for some odd reason. Especially the cafeteria. I miss everyone so much, even though I hung out with Kelly and Julia last weekend. I talked to Ben yesterday and he was like "we really need to hang out tommarow or some time because I haven't seen you in a long time." I don't know what I should do with Ben. Like being friends and stuff. He has been and asshole not only to me, but also everyone, especially Chuck (Ben is always like "I hate him so much becuase he gets so annoying!". Yeah, maybe once in a while he does, but doesn't everyone?). Also Ben and Julia broke up, which is no suprise to me. I feal sorry for Julia because of the way Ben didn't talk to her for a long time and didn't see her for Valentines day. I don't know what is up with Ben, but he is annoying me and everyone around him. And if he is reading this now, believe me Ben, I not a fucking idoit for talking about this. I am quite to opposite because I am the only one who is actually talking about in hopes of you seeing this and stop whatever you are doing because I am not the only one who wants to fricken strangle you for being assholes to them. Hey, we are still best friends, but the stuff you are doing are really annoying not only me, but Chuck, Julia, and Kelly. I need to stick up for myself now and shit, so you need to stop. I wouldn't be saying this if it was just only me, but it's not. So please stop being an asshole at random periods of time and be like who you were before high school, because we are all suffering from your guilt trips and insults that are a "joke" to you, but are the very opposite in our piont of view. Just stop because this needs to end now... 8:55 a.m. - 03-05-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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