parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Guess Assholes Always Have A Three Letter Name Listening To: Swing, Swing by All American Rejects I felt so great when you called me up and asked me to go to your house. But, I knew that there was more to that then just me going to your house. I knew it. You would never do that. All you wanted was for her to get a ride so you can see her. I'm a bus to you, an unemotional form of transportation device you use at your own demise. Oh, and you probably think "yeah, well I also wanted you too come also". Great for you, asshole. You want a ride more than to see me and you know it. Well, the next day came upon us and I asked them if they liked going over to his house. Theier answers gave me light. Thier answers finally showed me that I am not a one-man army in this lasting war agained a blind man. I can't stand you anymore. Your like salt. Your a poison in which ones body cannot function without. I die because of you, and I can't do anything about it. You make me sick with you diposal of feelings. I ask you to stop and you laugh at me. I don't fucking gave two mother fucking shits if you think it is a joke. People are around the see the wrong image when you did the shit you do. I am not your fucking puppet. I am not a stage monkey for everyone to laugh at. Even when no one bought a ticket, you still make me preform. I ask you to stop AND YOU LAUGH AT ME. Do you think I am some kind of fucking brainwashed idiot. Can't you take the hint. No wait, It's not even a hint. I directly ask you to stop and you laugh at me. FUCKING STOP! YOUR SO FUCKING RETARDED!. Highschool made me realize that I need new friends. Someone who listens when I speak or even lets me add my two cents into decisions. I hoped this was a stage of yours. Some kind of Three month play I star in. Looking back, you started this at the beggining of the school year. You think in your head that you truely enjoy me around. You probably think that I am a friend of you. A great friend. Well, I am great frind. I do enjoy you around me. I enjoy the moment when we all had fun. Your an awsome friend until you fucking make me preform. I wish you could step into my shoes and see what I see when you do something like that. Only then will you see what you do to me. Remember last time when we were all at a friends house, and I kept counting. I didn't count how many times you blinked. I didn't count how much time it took for somone to say a sentence. I counted how many times you told me to shutup or insulted me. I didn't have any more fingers to count with. Your the kind of people who people are in fear of being firends with. Your a fucking asshole when you make me preform. I am not alone 9:00 p.m. - 04-05-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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