parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Overdosed On Flinstones. Listening To: Soco Ameretto Lime by Brand New Yup, listening to emo at 2:18 in the morning sure wont get me in a good mood. I took my medication today after about a two/three day "drug vacation." Whenever I have a period of time in which I don't take my medication, the day I go back on it I get extremly irritated and depressed. It's not fun. Especially when I got to work with Morgan agian. Kill me now. I fucking hate that bitch. I wanna go hang out with Julia, now that she is home. I wanna go take a walk with her alone- just her and me. I wanna hear all about her expieriance at her camp and I wanna catch up with her about life and how I am feeling. I missed that bitch. We both had about five seconds together at the Elks club last night (awsome band was there, gametime. Their website is linked Here). I got a piece of a broken sign. Once I get a digital camera that not a piece of shit and a gold membership, i'll take a picture of it. It's really cool. I'm in such a shitty mood. Oh god I fucking hate my moods. Rollercoasters, thats what they are. Rollercoasters. Why though? Why? This whole emotional thing isn't needed at all. It is so fucking unnecessary. I don't need my moodswings. My personality gets in the way of everything and I think I am ready to push it aside and be real with everyone. But I don't have anyone to show it to. I dunno, I also think I'm so fucking sad because I overdosed on Flinstones Vitamins. I took three. I'm so wasted right now. I took a red one and two orange ones. I am such a badass. Oh fuck it. I can't get in a better mood. This is starting to happen all the time now. I'll get wicked sad and depressed for that night. I'll stay up until 4:00 and then I'll wake up at 11:30 and totally forget that I was wicked sad last night. I'm so fucking complicated and I fucking hate it more then life itself. Why can't I just be simple. Simple Parker. I think I am the only one who gets annoyed by themself. Why can I just be simple!!! Is that so hard? I need a friend who cares, 'cause I don't even care about myself. 2:26 a.m. - 08-10-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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