parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dates Are So Outdated Listening To: Nothing Oh god I want a girlfriend so badly. I feel so left out with all my friends who have hands to holds and lips to kiss. I want that in a girl. I want those late-night talks on the telephone and those long walks at night when the world is sleeping. I want to kiss her and just look at her and feel so secure and have so much passion. I want that. I want that so much. I don't understand why I don't have that now. Am I not attractive? Do I come off as just a friend? I dunno. Something tells me that I wouldn't be a good boyfriend. I don't know. All I know is that when I know I am in a relationship, I wanna treat my girl so wonderful. I want to be with someone to show that I can be more then just a friend. But I'm afraid of my heart being broken. I don't ever want that. Ever. It's hard enough right now without a girlfriend then dealing with your heart being broken. I dunno, maybe this entry is a total waste. Maybe I'll find a girl next week, maybe I will never find one. I just want somone to hold and to cherish, because it would make me feel so good knowing that I am not alone. 11:49 p.m. - 09-09-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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