parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Am Just Breathing Every Second For Nothing Listening To: Soco Ameretto Lime by Brand New I dunno. I went to my mothers this weekend. I dunno. I have to take a train to her house, cause it is an hour away and she is kinda poor (she just got a car about a month ago after two years of not having one...she doesn't work). The train ride there is amazing though. The view from the train are wonderful. Since it's autumn, all of the vast field are painted with red and orange and brown and their are rivers and everything. It's really awsome. I am going to take my camera with me and take pictures next time I travel up there. My mother is moving down to North Caronlina. I can't take it. I know that we can talk on the phone and stuff, but it is going to kill me inside, knowing that she is hundreds of miles away. It differen't then her living in New Hampshire because I can just take a train up there and she her, as opposing to taking an airplane in order to see her. I love my mother so much. So much. The thought of her dying somday just tears out my insides. I seriously do not know what I would do without her. I will probably kill myself when she dies because I could not take it without her. She is still kinda young, 49, but the fact that she smokes every other second of the day is going toget her in the end. Oh god, I dont wanna think about it. There was a really big concert in Marblehead yesterday. Huge, to be exact. Obviosly I didn't go, I was up in New Hampshire. A lot of people went, I guess. I feel like I am drifting farther and farther from my friends, I haven't hung out with them in about a week and that is because of the fact thet I need to visit my mother every other weekend. I dunno. I just don't fucking know. 7:04 p.m. - 10-26-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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