parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Saterday Drives To The Train Listening To: Forever Longing The Golden Sunsets by The Appleseed Cast My mom is out of the hospital. She is living with my grandmother and she has a knee cast and a neck brace and she needs to have that on for 10 to 12 weeks. I miss her. It's really wierd. I am so happy and lucky and fortunate that my mother is still with me today, but she also has this big gash on her head and she is so different. We had this absolutly amazing relationship and we were fucking making plans to live in North Carolina and they all came crashing down when my mother crashed into a tree. She means EVERYTHING to me and to see her not remember the stuff we had together feels like daggers wrapping around my heart and stabbing me as hard as they can. God do I wish my mother remembers what we had together. At least she still remembers that I am her favorite child. But, somthing is missing when I look at her. When I talk to her. Somthing is definatly differnt about her and it KILLS ME to see that. God, do I love her and I don't believe this. I want my mother back. This accident has been a fortunate disaster. I am fortuate to have my mother on this Earth today, but this accident pulled us apart to some degree and I want her BACK! I JUST WANT HER BACK! I WANT MY FUCKING MOM BACK! THAT IS ALL I FUCKING WANT! 12:10 a.m. - 04-07-04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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