parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All Roads Lead To Depression The worst thing in the whole world to me is change. I hate change more then ANYTHING. I also hate this quote: "The only thing constant is change". Change is the devil to me. Change I can't control my life anymore after moving into this house in swampscott. I'm starting to become depressed agian. And thats change. Change with my moods. So basically change=depression=change=depression... I can now link anything to depression. Lets say...um...my handwriting. My handwriting has changed since I become a student at Swampscott High School. That means that I have been focusing on school more, which means I have been less social. Being less social means I don't have a lot of friends at S.H.S, which means I have been alone. Note: When I be alone, I think WAY to much, I get confused, become depressed, and think about how much my life sucks. Being alone is a booby trap made by depression. Another Example: Food. I hardly eat food anymore because my A.D.D. medication dramatically (or, in other words, dramastically) lowers my appetite ( I seriosly ate about 3 pieces of bubble gum and a bowl of spagettios yesterday). Since I take A.D.D medication, I get depressed becuase of the fact that I need A.D.D medication (and by the way, A.D.D is change to me because the fucking docters diagnosed me with it about a year ago this month). So now that everything leeds to depression, I am in fr a ride...agian. Right now i'm on the very edge of the cliff of depression, but don't worry, i'm gunna fall soon... 1:24 p.m. - 02-15-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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