parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- YOU FUCKING INFERNO Listening To: The Blink CD Wow. I'm not in a good mood at all right now. I haven't written in this diary in so long and I miss it and I REALLY am not in a good mood. We re heading into 2004 and I cannot BELIEVE I DON'T HAVE MY HOUSE. We actually found that the fire reach my room on the third floor of my house. The damage was MUCH more than we thought. The fucking firemen said that if we didn't wake up 30 seconds after we did, our chances of FUCKING LIVING WOULD HAVE BEEN SLIM TO MOTHER FUCKING NONE. I COULD HAVE DIED. I COULD HAVE FUCKING DIED. OH MY FUCKING GOD. 30 FUCKING SECONDS to decide my fate and I am alive. I could have died in my room. Happy new year. I don't believe I have my room. Words cannot decribe how much I loved my room. Words cannot decsribe how much I loved my mother fucking ocean view and my mother fucking bed and wall clock and the lighthouse I could see at night and all the planes that fly into Boston Logan Airport. I had this light in my room and I could turn it on my touching any part of the base and it had three modes: dim, medium, and bright. And I miss all of the nights in which I put on Dashboard Confessional in my CD tray and dim my light and just was so happy and everything was so perfect: I had the room, the girl, the life. I was finally for ONE MOTHER FUCKING TIME COMFORTABLE WITH MY SELF AND MY LIFE AND A FUCKING FIRE HAD TO FUCKING RIP THAT FROM MY WEAK CLUTCH OF MY HANDS. IT WILL TAKE A YEAR UNTIL I CAN MOVE BACK INTO MY HOUSE! ALL I WANT IS MY FUCKING ROOM FOR ONE FUCKING NIGHT. I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED! I WANT IT BACK PLEASE GOD JUST GIVE IT BACK T ME FOR ONE NIGHT PLEASE GOD FOR ONE NIGHT! HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR YOUR FUCKING INFERNO. I HOPE YOUR FUCKING HAPPY YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!! 8:43 p.m. - 12-31-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||