parkplace's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Wicked Big Decision Listening To: Deja Entandu CD by Brand New What a week. I am feeling better from New Years. I'm in school right now. I don't have a computer yet, but I will be getting on today. It's good. I thought it was going to be totally horrible, but it is actually great. I just hate how Megans (step-sister, 2 months younger than me) thinks she knows about computers. She told me that I am not allowed to download anything. I said "Me?! Your computer in our burnt down house was so fucked it didn't turn on [before the fire]." Whatever. I don't think I would be able to maintain my template site anymore if my Step-Mother and my Father defends Megan. They always do. Megan is always inferior. I hate her somtimes. She is going to fuck up this computer so badly. It'll take a week. Less than a week. Oh god I am just going to save up for a computer so I would not have to deal with the shit Megan will do with it. So I'm in a bad mood now. Life is so fucking boring and frustrating. Why can't I get some excitement!? Someone put in an offer on my Mothers house in New Hampshire. She and my brother will be moving down to North Caroline within months and I don't think I would be able to take being so far away from somone I love to most. I am seriously thinking about moving in with them down there. She'll have a liveable house finally and I will have my 30-year-old Sister and my two neices down there and I could get away from my Father and my fucking family. I would live with my mother again for the first time since I was seven and this would be the only change I would be able to get. I know I have my friends up here and I would fucking die if I didn't have them around (especially you Julia), but my mother is, quite frankly, more important than them. Life would be more simple and happy living in a more Sunny place than Marblehead Massachusetts. Holy crap. I forgot to tell you about the new house I am living in for the year. I live in a brand new 1.5 million dollar mansion. Even better, I live back in marblehead. MARBLEHEAD! FOR ONE MORE YEAR! IT'S CRAZY! I'll be a Marbleheader for another year. And I'll miss this new house if I go down to North Caroline. I dunno. What it really comes down to is that I am finally getting a chance (proabably my only one) to leave my life and start a new one and I don't know if my life right now is worth throwing away on a chance that my life wont be better down South. I'll be the only person down there who will say "wicked".... I missed this diary so much. 11:32 a.m. - 01-06-04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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